February 2, 2012
Happy Anniversary, Vince! <3
We made it to 365 days!!! Yaaaaay. More to go! :)
Thank you so much for the harana along with your 10 other MU batchmates :) I feel so special that I’m the only one who got harana’d with the whole batch! Heeheehee. Thank you also for the wonderful tulips; I’m glad you didn’t forget they were my favorite!! :D Even if our lantern failed to fly, I’m still happy we got to semi-fly one together. Hurrah. Maybe next time? :)
Thank you for the past 365 days of being together! We’ve been through so much (and I do mean so much) and I’m willing to face the coming days with you through and through. Lezzdothissss!!! Good luck with MU and I’ll finish Psych soon. Then we can go out normally again. Haha! Yaaaaay. I love you! >:D<
Hey, look, it’s me.
It’s been 5 days since the UPCM list of interviewees was released, and sad to say, but I wasn’t given the chance to be part of Class 2017. It’s been 5 days already, but I’m still not over it. I’ve been expecting it, knowing that my grades seem to be lower than my female batchmates (even if I am cum laude standing), but it’s really different when you’re finally facing the fact that you can’t be part of something you really want to be part of.
Sure, I do admit that it is my fault that I did not exactly put my best foot forward in the past 3 years of my college life. I barely passed my Bio 11 because I decided not to care about my grades. That was even the phase when I did not want to be a doctor anymore, and fun made more sense to me. Looking back, I even should have dropped a few classes that I was not doing well in, but little did I know about dropping and all I felt was that dropping a class was a waste of my money. But it’s too late for regretting anything, really. (Not that I do regret anything much that I did instead of studying, kind of. Haha.)
Heck, little did I know about medical schools when I got to college. I didn’t even know about grade cut-offs, I thought you just had to apply. I only knew about everything after summer class in second year, when all possible academic mistakes that could be done was made. It was hard to pull my grades up in 3 semesters, given the required majors at those times. Maybe it hurts because I expected even a little bit that I would make it at least to the interviews—kahit hindi umabot sa final list, makapag-interview lang. Anyway, what’s the point of rationalizing, when everything’s done.
I’m still sad I didn’t make it. It means a lot of things to me. It means I won’t be able to be with most of my batchmates who passed. It means I won’t be schoolmates again with my boyfriend. It means that I won’t be able to be part of UP anymore.
It also means I let my parents down.
I’m really lost right now as to where I want to go. I don’t want to think about it right now. I have a bunch of things I still have to do, and sulking about this isn’t helping me at all. I need to, though. Just because. I still want to be a doctor, of course. That’s what matters now, to make my dreams come true. I just don’t know where to go now.
Lasts of 2011: Last Facebook Wall Post with my New Year’s message to everyone (which I failed to post before 2012…)
PS: I managed to stay away from my computer during the transition period! WOOHOO! Shh, Canter! :))
Lasts of 2011: Last South Night— Palms Country Club and Le Souk
Migo, Isa, Issa, Marge
Lasts of 2011: Last roadtrip— Tagaytay
Issa, Isa, Kar, Annie, Pauline, Ge, Kiko
So here’s my Christmas gift for my boyfriend this year.
First time to use watercolor, but I guess it turned out okay.
Merry Christmas! :)
Because December 26 just ended, but it’s still December 26 in other parts of the world. And my heart’s been screaming “Always Keep The Faith” all day today. :)
